These are the words she has chosen to describe the curious mix of electric energy that swirls around her. I get it, this feeling of excitement laced with fear. How it makes one feel both elated and slightly nauseous at the same time. Nervousxited means something very specific to her as it may mean something different to someone else.
All I know for now is that it makes it impossible for her to sit down and watch the movie. Her empathy to the feelings on screen makes it almost as if she was in the movie herself, anticipating nervously as one character delivers their lines or alters the plot. I can almost see the emotions as if they were colors dancing around her, pulling her in one direction or the next. I put my hands together as if I was holding a ball and she knows what I mean. It is an exercise we have been practicing. To hold emotions that are too big (or not ours) as if they were part of an energy ball. She sits down and under the blanket, I can see her placing her hands around this imaginary sphere. When she is ready she opens her hands and releases them. This is how she is learning not to take on the emotions on screen. This is how she deals with being nervousxited when watching movies.
We all feel emotions differently. For me, fear has as much of a physical presence as it has a mental one. Nervousxited might mean not sleeping before a presentation. Being discouraged often involves chocolates...
I know myself well enough by now to be able to identify what happens when I feel a certain way. To be able to know that this is what a certain emotion feels like for me and this is what I can do about it.