I ask myself who I want to be at this moment. In what direction I want to lean? How many more precious seconds of my time need to be sacrificed to feeling enraged? Do I want to hurt as to justify my own pain? Do I want to lash out with my words and become a mirror of what I have seen? Do I want to be someone who knows that stepping away and forgiving are not to same as condoning and accepting. Do I want to be someone who cherishes her own emotional peace over the cost of trying to prove herself right?
In the end, I ask myself the same question I always ask when I don't know what to do:
What would my bigger self do?